& I wonder.. If anything could ever feel this good forever

The holidays are rapidly approaching and the snow is about to fall. The cold has begun to slowly creep it's way into our lives and any day now it'll take over with brute force. Don't get me wrong I love the holidays and even the snow-- but I cant help thinking that this great mood of mine can't possibly last forever & it won't!! With work, Christmas shopping, and winter driving I will undoubtedly be forced to deal with more than a handful of holiday humbugs!

Overlooking the negativity of others, reflecting on the past year and thinking about my families thanksgiving tradition of listing what were thankful for i happened to make a nice list. While pondering the list I've found that I have so much to be thankful for. This year, first and foremost I am thankful for my friends and family and all that they have done for me. Not just this year but throughout my entire life. I am a pretty independent person, but I know if I didn't have their listening ears or shoulders to cry on I'd be absolutely lost.

Second, I am so thankful that after all this time I have found happiness. True and utter happiness right from deep within the pits of my soul. For a while I thought it impossible, the impossible dream. But on the contrary it was possible and was there all along it just took a little soul searching to find. Through finding this happiness deep within myself I have learned to appreciate people and life much more than I have in prior years.

I am thankful for my significant other, Isaih. He is genuinely In love with me and greatly contributes to my new found happiness. Every day he gives me a new reason to smile and I fall In love with him more each and every single day. I am thankful for the immense love we share for one another and the wonderful relationship we've built together. I am thankful for the memories we've already made as well as for the ones we have yet to make. I am glad he'll be back In my arms real shortly and I am excited to be able to celebrate the holidays together for the first time ( of hopefully many more to come).

Among these things I am also grateful for my health, my cousin making it through his tour In afghanistan and the fact that he will soon be on his way home, the roof over my head as well as the clothes on my back and the food In my belly....


I tend to over look it because I've had to deal with some hardships In my life but I am truly feeling blessed!!


So what are you thankful for ??

MAY THE BRIDGES I BURN LIGHT THE WAY! the other day while I was stumbling I came across this quote.. And as I read it I realized through recent events .. This has become my motto.

Puzzled

I'm on the pursuit of happiness...but I seem to be stuck at a brick wall. You see sometimes I think my life will be much better with someone by my side. A significant other to share my life with ...soo then I start my process with a guy I meet or have had my eye on and it never fails thatt I am let down. So then I think things are just less complicated... But then I cannt help but feel that something is missing...that I'm missing a piece.... Where's the missing piece to my puzzle ?

POEMS UNTITLED

- I Think about it from time to time..
Without YOU
I am like a poem without a Rhyme.
Eventhough you are gone,
& eventhough you have passed on...
YOU still make me S M I L E !
* If making you happy could have saved your life,
I would have married you ...Not once, but twice!!!



[ SO IT GOES..
The story continues on and on,
I'm just not the same...
now that you're gone.
My Love, rest those baby blues,
I'll be waiting for that day...
when once again it can be;
ME & YOU ]

LOL!! So growing up & even still today I frickin LOVE Disney...The movies,The channel, The characters, The songs, The world - cause I have never been to the land. hahahah so naturally when I stumbled upon an accompilation of the best disney songs of the 90's I had to listen & if you know me you know i cant just listen to music...If I know it I just have to sing it!

Can you picture me right now? Anywho, I hope you enjoy this playlist as much as I am right now. Im on the 3rd son of the list & I'm going the distance ;) over & Out



http://8tracks.com/thedankestmofo/disney-supermix?mix_set_id=3

“Melancholy”
You ever wake up,
and instantly your bad mood sets in?
Well, that’s exactly what happened to me,
I woke up on the wrong side of the bed, so to speak.

The worst part about it is,
I am not quite sure-- what has caused,
this condition to set in…

Maybe it’s due to the lack of sleep,
Or the cold sweaty sheets; From my bad dreams.
Maybe it’s from my thoughts of you
And all the things you’d rather do.
Or the regret & loss,
In my life,
That this world has caused.

This bitter bad mood—it threatens my day,
Its tears at my soul,
And just won’t go away.
Deeper into the depression I slip,
This melancholy thing ,
It just won’t quit.

All and All I don’t know what to do,
When I am in this insatiable mood
For what reason? You ask…
Well-- I don’t have a clue.

Dreams_what do they mean??

Okkk... so here goes~ have you ever wondered what your dreams mean? I do all the time and I know I am not the only one since there's a book out there dedicated entirely to analyzing ones dreams. They say that dreams are a product of the unconscious mind _ that these things that manifest themselves in our brains while sleeping are actually our deepest desires.

I am the type of person who usually sleeps through the night. Once I'm out I am knocked out and I wake up for nothing, but last night was different. I woke up a couple times and quickly fell back to sleep but that is hardly the weird part. In each and everyone of my dreams the same person was the focus... Over and over in my dreams I was confronted with the presence of one of my ex boyfriends...and once by his current significant other. Now its been forever since the break up, since I've seen or spoken to him , and Since I've even thought of him ...so why is it he's popping up in my dreams? and it wasn't just last nights...its been a few over the past few weeks....but I need to know the significance before it kills me.

Another thing about dreAms I wonder that has no merit and makes no sense• but I think it would be interesting is.... If someone shows up in your personal dreams u show up in theirs as well... I don't know justt a thought.....Over & out